Wound

I wasn't this depressed before
I used to be happy
I was always so fucking happy
probably a little bit too fucking annoyingly happy
and I would smile all the time like an idiot
by just thinking of you
and I would feel safe and loved
by looking into your eyes
and I would feel beautiful
just by notising the way you always looked at me
and I always knew
that everything was going to be alright.

But all of that burst
with the blink of an eye
tumbled down upon me
like bricks and stones
and I got so awfully bruised
all of it happened
all at once
my family got hurt
I got hurt and lost my home
but the very worst thing
was that just as all of this was happening
I lost you
the greatest thing
I've ever had.




So now
I'm depressed
no, depressed can't even describe this pain
I'm... A big open wound
with tears and blood running out of it
and I just don't know how
to minimize the pain
or at least how to ignore it
just for a little while
because every time I smile
even for just a second
I instantly think of how you're not here
and..





..How you'll never love me.

Nattedyr

Jeg er et nattedyr
fråder peanutbutter i måneskinslys
gemmer mig i mørket
forbander de åndssvage skøger
om natten er jeg alene
men også kun næsten

Katten går imod mig
hans øjne lyser op i mørket som små stjerner
han mijaver ydmygt og kigger
på mit livløse ansigt af skygger
hvad mon han tænker?

Jeg er et nattedyr
ikke langt fra en rotte
om dagen er jeg bange og følsom
for du vil træde på mig
rive mig i halen
om natten stille og vemodig
jeg er et nattedyr

forvist med våde øjne
og en dårlig smag i munden.

UPDATEEE!!!!!

Okay okay, jeg har skuffet jer grusomt, jeg har ikke postet noget i flere århundreder.

MEN jeg er begyndt på noget nyt! Jeg er begyndt at læse mine digte op og optage det, så hvis i vil høre det så tag lige et smut forbi min >>soundcloud<< hvor der allerede ligger to oplæsninger sammen med nogle sange jeg også har lavet :)


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